Like a fallen angel you came to me
You were my tormentor and I loved you so
Now you stand again on the spot you once left
A skin like rock is the element of my flesh
The chains have been broken and the sacred knife is in your hand
My heart wells up with hate for you
Your love I once sought after, now merely a broken scar of a fractured memory
I will always love you, but…
Leave my world, you’re not welcome here
A fallen acolyte, I ask for what I don’t deserve to have
Maybe this is blasphemy?
It is a twisted morality
But I don’t see it that way at all
I only want what is true and real
That which is supposed to mean something doesn’t mean anything at all if I’m only lying to myself about what I really want
This road is running off a cliff
I don’t want to take and then discard
Don’t want to live a life of regret
Don’t want to drag someone off this cliff with me
But I don’t know how to ask for what I want when it seems so messed up to the rest of the world
But they all live in their own bubble anyways
Catch me along this makeshift path I go along
Must I fight this war alone?
If it is my choice, you know my decision has already been made
Some say it’s better to “crash”
But I want something more real
Dark falls again
A ghost illuminates my bed
My thoughts
They are always with you
Your fingertips across my skin
My breath against your neck
But the next shifting thought takes you away
You were never here
I make you into an image of imperfection
I want you to be real like this
I can’t love you if you’re perfect
Means nothing
But you’re not real anyways
Lying alone
Empty void
I turn on my side and hug a ghost
You’ve never really been there
Yet every night I see you all the more
Builders of a city on the pages of history
The first clue
Innocent ignorance
The doctor’s medication
Made of plastic but a metaphor
There was nothing on us at all
Was this where it all began?
Was I to know this was permanent?
Are you living normal lives?
Are you aware of what I’ve become?
Desolation of youth
The pain was so strong I wanted to die
The false Aphrodite was a temptation
Its face was perfection but its spirit was that of a snake
Imagination
A blackened soul
Love/Hate
Going forward but my Fall pushed me further Away
Then one day love became a rose
But I chose the wrong one
To spite
And I ignored the rose I had and trampled it beneath my feet
Now it wants nothing to do with me
Not my fault
The rose was terrifying and its beauty was meant for someone else
And when I turned back
Someone had already taken the other one
Struggle/Confusion
I don’t know what I am
Song of the siren tempts me
But now I know that Aphrodite was never my enemy
It has a human face and a human spirit
I’m one of it
But a halfling
This is my history
It wasn’t my fault
Woke up, on the right side of the highway
Route 66
Underneath a circle highlighting the intersection
Tantalizing symbol
Twisted illusion
They all tell me
“Hey, this is the right way”
And I know it’s true
But when I imagine it
Seductive mirage
All I wanna do is use and take
Take what I can get, then regret all the rest
This isn’t what I really want
The siren’s got ahold of me
Fell under her spell
While on route on the highway
Well, maybe I could love that path anyways
But don’t you know it’s not the one I fantasize about anymore?
Forbidden fruit
Unorthodox Arrow
I see you standing on the other side of the highway
You look more real to me but you’re still in my Mind so you’re still Fake
I love you more
You’re my dream, my hope, my fantasy
But they said you were wrong
Could we be crusaders together in this war?
I want you to fight with me but I’m not even sure you exist
Come and love me and I will love you back
Maybe someday I could wake up on the wrong side of the highway
Then I know I would love you forever
Up is down and black is white
This wrong arrow feels right
